I MISS YOU.....
cnt bliv i wil not be meetin u til mon..
=((
sad or wad?



i made my way dwn to hail a cab to go werk...

after all that has hppn,
we r stil tgthr..
=))

i love u alot la sayang..
i swear i cnt bear to let u go..

im hapy tt we talked it out n all..
n im certain tt yer love fer me is true..
to hell wit wad othrs say..
imma stay put...
cuz u r my HAPYNESH...

yang,
dun u tink we have bn goin thru alot fer the past 10 mths?
it has never bn an easy road fer us..
but yea,
its all worth it..



i wil do nthn n evrythn,
so long s - M I C K A I R A - stays....




i wana thank naza fer bein der fer me..
i heed yer advice...
&
all thnx to u..
we r stil tgthr..
wadever u said was true...
we r realy thnkful to u.....
thnx a million...

n to yuzie. yuyun, zara....
thnx fer yer concern...
im touched, DEEP, DEEP..!


qn fer tday:
y do 2 humans meet wen ders gona b separation in the end? nuthn frm u aftr her txt..
i had no tears til now...

wad dos tt mean?
y i hear nuthn frm u at all?
y is she holdin onto yer hp?

im lost fer werds...

im jz sooo dwn..
soo effing crush...

haven i done enuf fer u?
fer us?

.................................

qn fer tday:
leave or stay? pix of us wit grandma...
wile waiting fer the bus to head to geylang..
funny la grandma..
haas...
=))

me n my othr half...

aira feelinfeelin...

the 5 of us walk ard geylang..
gerek or wad...

pa, u funny la..
cnt kp yer hands off me..
curikcurik, hug me, hold my hand..
hee...
cheeky boy!
saaayang kamu!!

the four of us aftr breaking fast sesame..
a late one actualy..

the atmosphere was rthr weird..
but i gas all of us jz go wit the flow..
stil i had fun tho..
+)

me n her again...

gwe ama pacar gwe...
IM YERS!!

=)

love of my lyf...

ayang...
i njoyed the talk tt we had at the playground..
yer like pretending yer tokin to a strngr (me lar)
n u voice out evrythn..
we pretended s tho we r no lngr tgthr n stuf..
u were all teary wen u tok abt it...
i felt touched, noe...
very, s a matta of fact...
eg ; u said i noe u evrythn abt u at the tip of my finga,
no one else cn b s patient s me,
&
loads more....

papa...
i love u ayang...
i swear...
i promise to kp all my promises to u...
esp thox regarding my past...

aku cinta kamu banget deh!!

qn fer tday:
is pretending a gud thng?

gud mrng ppl...
=))

kinda jz woke up...
wen ders sch,
i cnt sim to wake up early..
wen ders no sch,
im up early in the mrng...
sheesh..
irritatingly weird...

&
did i mention tt i LOVE my tymtable tix week?
=)
tday off day!
tmr's tymtable : 0800-1200!
cool shyt or wad?
if only its lyk a permanent tymtable fer 1.2....
i dare say i wun absent lar...
*aira, drm on*

ystrdy had a minor argument wit ayang...
n i jz slept...
arrgh....

scene 1 :

'ayang....i nak....'
'jan ah....'

scene 2 :

'we were at a fireplc, wile havin wine'
aira broke into lafters..

scene 3 :

'ayang...'
silence.... (fer lyk a gud 3 mins den)
'ye ashem.....'

randomness...

bt pa..
i bet u undrstd..
haas...
u laf n laf..
til u cough n u nearly wanted to puke, hor?
haas..
*aira shakes head*

i love u lar, can?

ystrdy nyt,
i had a heated argument wit grandma,
i took my fag,
stomped outta the hse,
went to the staircase to have my nicotine shot..

aargh..
im soo effing pissed..
if u tink im using too muc money..
stop me frm my nursing course n let me werk!!
c lar,
jz mentioning abt it mkes my blood boil..
oouh yar,
den came bro n sis..
i duno y bt i swear i felt awkward..
haish..
unsettled!


ooh yar...
tt gal saw me in sch..
xchnge hugs,
a few werds..
n the nxt very sec,
she was busy huggin anthr...
how irritatingly rude...
nvm...
thnx fer tt, huh!


grandma's gona go geylang ltr..
gona ask ayang to follow me accompany her..
=)
aunt aint following us to get aju raye..
she's gvin nek the money instd...
pa's following! =))

enuf said...

sayang,

i love the fact tt u kp fallin fer me
over n over again!
*winks*

nway i hup yer fasting la hor..
u dyn txt me durin sahur...

ttx abt it i gas...

n my tummy is upset!
thnx to tt yogurt!
=(

qn fer tday :
y did tt fall left a huge impact on me?

n..
ayang jz txt..
' :( ayang..'
pujok session lar ni...
tau pun eh, nk pujok i..
slh siapa kok?
kamu jugak kan?
=)
stil,
I LOVE U MICKY!!

i swear the cramp is killin me...
its the worst ever...
-haish

got hum like hrs ago...
went bazaar..
alaaa..
evrythn's the same lar..

bump into quite a few ppl...
+))

ooh ya...
dot was bein an arse..
haas...
ferever dsturbing me..
'aira da kakakkakak eh skrg..'
'aira, asal kau jln gitu..'
den jz now i cmplained to pa & dot..
'aira haus eh..'
dot actually hold my head n push it dwn to his ehem..
haas...
funny sia..

kau giler la dot!

i had fun goin out with the bof of dem..
they made my nyt!
jom!
g lagi k?
=)

mon,
bck to campus..
gotta bring my lovely tabbner...
=)
haish...

sayang..
i love u n tts all that matters..
bear that in mind..
the past is the past...
learn to let go...

i duno wad to say alr la..
my lyf is rather dull nw...


and ouhh...
HAPY 10th MTHS to MICKAIRA!!



qn fer the day:
y is life full of dwns n not ups? pm shifts r spos to b rthr relax, ryt?
but nah..
tday i was xtremely busy...
n nw..
im so effin shagged...

tday i dyn had any pocket money..
cuz i spent my allowance like on monday...
&
noe wad?
huby actualy came to my rescue...
he blanje me...
+))
sweet kan?
plus he even gv me money fer the rest of the week...
ayang,
thnx fer evrythn tday..
u touch me deep, deep!!
im sory to hv kept u waitin til i finish werk...
stil i realy appreciate wad uve done fer me tday..
evn tho yer in pain,
u made yer way to my werkplc n mke sure i had sumthn to brk fast..
saaaaaayang ushuk ku...

tmr,
bof wify n huby am shift...

huby's hum alr...
i gas we bof wil b mkin our way to lala land sn....


qn fer tday:
y do humans kp repeatin their mistakes? -tired

jz gt hum frm mytin ayang..
fetch her aftr werk den we walk ard at raffles..
sat dwn...
we had caramel frappe
&
sushi......


yang...
get me e chocs kay?
(okay tts random)
suddenly i got reminded of ayang's xpression upon lukin at the prices of the chocs..
haas...

all i cn say is,
the rs is indeed improving..
i fyl soo loved now...

=))

papa...
i wun ferget the shower n pipe incident..
funny lar u yang...
den me n the fag thngy...
haas...
we had a hell of a tym lafin,
dyden we darla?

&
yer soo hawt.....
u got me wantn more..
*grins*

bfer headin hum,
we shared 2 pratas..
had our nicotine shot,
&
we made our way hum...

sayang..
i wun ever leave u..
cum wad may,
im certain tt we bof will pull thru...


yang,
jom g bazaar...
ajak lala, al, sesume la..
okays?

im bored..
sis is out..
gotta slp alne..
haish...
werkin tmr...
am shyft...

klars..
wana call hubby....


qn fer tday:
y do ppl love to invite trouble to demselves? wanted to blog in here ystrdy..
but yea was too slpy..

ryt..
tt gal finally did txt me n stuf..
best part,
she was nt at all sorry abt it..
wanted to fyt fer her ryts instead...

she kept askin y micky cnt b frens wit her..
w/o my knowledge,
definately a no, no...
please,
i dun cntrl micky..
ppl close to us noes tt..
i myn,
im even ok with the fact tt she does cntct her x n al..
if im aware of u bof cntctn earlier,
aku tk pasal sia...

&
u noe y micky chose u?
cuz she noes ive gt this grudge against u..
soo u bcame the victim..
aim : to hurt me more
n coincidently,
wen we were hvin a heated argument,
u txt my hp..
n yar tts how it all started..
y u die2 insist tt my mataer likes u?
even sayin tt ppl in clubs noes it too?
korg knal mataer aku brape lame?
korg stakat knal dier dlm club kan?

i noe my gf fer almost 3 yrs..
u myn u guys noe her better den i do?
i doubt!
gal,
can yer quite sumtym beat my 3 yrs??



n to those reading my blog..
esp couples...
u guys better nt lay yer eyes on anyone else othr den yer own partner..
n dance with yer own partner too k?
cuz..
in clubs these days,
the ppl der love to observe..
jz bcuz micky luks at her,
dances wit her..
evryone assumes so..
so yar..
with tt kinda low mentality tinkin,
i gas i like quite a few bungs...
&
wait,
there were number of tyms i danced with gals n
even love lukin at dem...
i like dem?
meanin im nt only a passive,
im actually a PL too??
haas...
korg actualy soo free eh?
to observe la..
to tok abt it...
gf aku hawt sgt pe smp korg tok abt it..



n wad ryts hv u gt to tell me hw hurt micky was wen i cntcted my x..
u dun even noe the whole story..
dun poke yer nose into ppl's affair..

n the best part...
u so called die2 soo wana noe whthr my gf likes u..
u actually kept askin til she said.. 'ya...'
an utter embarressment!

ni kau ckp kau tk rampas kwn peh mataer?
haas...
yer darn funny lar gal...

wadever it is..
korg nye aim to brk us up was an utter failure...

in fact micky treasures me more now..

i shall end tix whole crap here...

n yar,
to that prsn hu told her abt me farking her upsyd dwn in my blog...
thnx aye fer passing the msg to her...
=))
i owe u 1 k? yer sucha two face bitch.
i farking swear..
go, go spread n say tt my gf likes u..
&
yea, even if she did so,
you noe wad?
its just to spike me..
to get bck at me...
n if u stil shiok sendiri......
gasak kau la, gal...


ooh..
ya....
u bof actualy agreed to like kp it btwn the bof of u...
but der u go..
spreading it ard...
kirekan lu bangge ar?
skrg,
sape tanggung malu, joy??
hus havin the last laf?

sial ah gal..
i maybe younger den u..
but hey,
bn der, done tt...

so like kononkonon nye..
nk step ckp dgn micky,
' i wan tix n tat in a bung... blah, blah, blah...'
so mcm nk dptkn micky...
SELET DAUN AR?
step understanding..
b der s a fren...
den slowly mcm nk take her frm me??
(stop dreaming)
beb...
aku da buat ar, sume ni..

THINK!

y wud she wana confess to me abt all this if she meant evrythn she said to u??

THINK AGAIN!

n the best part,

wen micky txt u sayin she wana put a stop to all tix...
u actualy have the cheek to say
'i wil oways b der fer u wenever u nyd sumone'
n wad?
u told my gf yg kau bukan jenis yg rampas kwn peh mater?
taik ar...
jgn nk step baik la..
bukan perampas beh, asal nk g blg sume yg mataer aku ckp dier suke kau...?
dun contradict yerself..

sial la..
u jz made me realise a thng..
pompan mcm kau senang kacep..



she admitted tt its her stupidity to do so
&
she regrets it to the farkin max...

so beb,
stop tryna like u noe,
step innocent like s u did no wrng...
all thox ' i duwan u to quarrel wit yer bf... i hv no fylinx fer yer bf..'
sayin u dyn txt nor call..
u even called her frm yer werkplc, yer hp..
PLUS!!!!
u even told her the criteria u wan in a bung..
a bung hus manly type..
gitu carik jantan la sial..
to tink u even tell my gf tt yer gf is lembut...

gracious...

enuf la beb...
im certain tt micky was merely usin u...
but hey,
she will never leave me
n definately i wuden too...
in fact,
u sorta like strengthen our rs..
im sory fer tix dissapointment!

n ya,
its yer mouth,
cary on,
spread all u cn...

MICKAIRA WILL STIL STAY!!


qn fer tday:
wads yer motive???
gal..... was yer plan ruin????
im 'SORRY'
ooh, anthr qn fer u gal...
do u nyd me to ask my gf to teach yer gf how to b manly? HATE MYSELF FER LOVING YOU....

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SOO....



ok, im done.. ooh well...
how do i put it..
im hurt. crushed. devastated. dsapointed. WADEVER-


REVENGE IS SWEET..

how true is tt?
in wad sense is it sweet wen its btwn couples?
like ok,
u love tt sumone very muc,
wud u wana do thngs wic u noe,
wil strain the rs,
leave teary eyes n stuf?

&
yes GIRLS these days..
r PURE BITCHES...
sory to put it in a crude way but yea,
puki gatal...

gal,
if yer my fren,
u wud dfinately,
text me up or sumthn wen tt hppns,
but did u?
nah!
ooh well,
we r jz hi n bye frens, ryt?
soo it doesnt affect u a single bit, hor?
but if u tink yer duin so cuz of sumthn rgardin the past,
very well den..
look..
have it yer way..
n yar..
if u hv sumthn against me,
STOP PRETENDING to b nice to me..
P-E-R-I-O-D

"u love me?
and this is wad u do?
nuthn i say will go into yer head..
i duno wad else do to n say..
u hv done wad u wan,
i hup u r hapy...
u r jz too egoistic..."


BUT
STILL
I
CANT
SAY
GO


qn fer day:
wad kinda satisfaction do u get?? so hw was yer 1st day of fasting?
mine was good..
=))
alhamdulillah..

tadi met ayang..
she came over aftr breaking fast...
papa puase tday!!
*rnd of applause*
we went cyber cafe,
den head to 7-11 n sat at the staircase...
ard 10, ayang headed hum..
m waitin fer her call..
hmmm...
we r duin am shift tmr...
*sighs*
malesh deh....

ayang,
i doubt we r mytin tmr kan?
gona mish u noe...
pa,
jom myt dot..
i miss her too....
r u hum yet?
hurry,
call me...
im missing u tons!!

ooh gosh,
im werkin tmr...
tsk...
im in a holiday mood....

dear,
sat we buke sesame k?
i nk buke kt uma u sumday?
kangen ama mama.....



qn fer tday:
y do i feel the pinch? B-U-R-P


aira jz finish bersahur...
drinkin water now...

papa's eating..
ayang,
aamo greedy k?
take only wad u cn eat..
dun take spicy stuf eh..
wait aket peyot...

cnt wait to c u later........
K-A-N-G-E-N

K-A-N-G-E-N

K-A-N-G-E-N
(dun brk my fast, k? promish?)



ok,
GO....


ooh yar,
tc otw to werk sayang...
aamo nenoty hor?

KAU KEKASIH KU............

qn fer tday:
r memories harmful? wad a day..
i swear it sucks..
i broke dwn aftr a long tym..
thnx fer the shyts, aunts..
it was very muc appreciated..
=))


aftr the whole incident,
i slpt til 6pm..
den dcyded to myt ayang..
met her fer a mere wile..
rched hum at 10..
was on the comp til now..

papa ushuk slp alr...
missing u ayang...

ooh ya,
we had fun dyden we, yang?

ystrdy,
s in on sat,
we went to catch a movie at PS..
4BIA..
i love the movie...
ayang akot.............
hehe...
den we headed to our hum..
we decyded to do the 500pieces puzzle..
we did it frm 1am-7am..
picture that?
gosh...
but we did take a break..
n fer that,
yer hawt la...
aaaw....
hehe...


naza!!
i saw u...
haas...
u were like.. 'gal..!'
i tot who...
zap!!
kamu...
haas...
nice mytin u..
tho it was a short wile...
missing u tons still...

to my nana baby...
dearest gal..
im soo sorry fer nt goin kays?
fergive me cn?
duwan the cold treatment frm u..
i'll make it up to u by breaking fast tgthr sumday?
ask yuzie darla too..
huever u wana bring, k?
please fergv me kays?

n yar,
to my fellow muslim frens,
slamat bersahur & berpuase...
muz fast hor, k?
=)


qn fer tday:
was it a mistake??